On the Brink

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If you come to this blog to be inspired by a woman who does everything the right way then you are definitely reading the wrong blog. However, if you are interested in reading the story of a woman on the brink then you’ve come to the right place.

The only problem is that we have no idea what I’m on the brink of… We’ll just have to wait and see.

Now that we have established that I have to tell you that I didn’t do the workout I was supposed to do yesterday. I just didn’t want to. I got in some exercise but not that specific workout.

My attitude has been crappy lately and I’ve come to the conclusion that I need a new perspective. So I pushed aside all of the things on my “To Do” list and focused on living in the moment. The goal for the day was simply to enjoy it.

Instead of looking at my girls as if they were another chore on the list of things to do I relished in them.

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We ate bananas by the pool. We giggled and snuggled. Bridget and I talked and I let Penelope plunge her chubby finger into my eyeball a million times as she repeated… “eyes?”

I cooked dinner for the pure joy of it and I enjoyed every bite.

I explored my garden and enjoyed its fruits instead of lamenting over the amount of weeding that needs to be done.

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When the girls went to sleep I snuck outside with a glass of wine and lounged in the hammock that sits in my garden. I have yet to sit in that thing… can you believe it?

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I rested my chlorine soaked head on the outdoor pillow that was put on clearance to make room for school supplies and I took the time to admire the moment. I glanced over to my house looking from the outside in. As the moon cast its glow over the yard and the windows emitted their warm light I felt like my life was plunged into a storybook.

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(Then I took a picture of myself enjoying the moment because taking selfies of yourself as you hang out in your back yard is a totally normal thing to do.)

As I enjoyed my new found perspective I stopped rushing ahead. I feel like there are so many times that I focus on the future… “I can’t wait for Fall! I can’t wait until I’ve dropped all of this weight! I can’t wait until I’m done with school!”

Only a few months back I couldn’t wait to be where I am now. What good was all of that anticipation if I’m not going to enjoy it when it arrives? So that’s what I did. I sat back and enjoyed it.

You should try it some time…

Here is a song I love running to that just about sums up my new attitude.

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